My apologies to any moms who might be offended that I named my car a human name; I actually wanted to call her “Night Fury” after three laborious hours ironing out someone else’s mistake that ended up costing us an additional $1000 and leaving the dealership at 10 p.m. However, “Night Fury” just didn’t seem fitting with her white angelic color (In all honesty, I was the one who should’ve been renamed Night Fury.).
I’ve owned Mercy Grace for less than 24 hours and she has already taught me so many things. First of all, I did nothing to deserve her. My old car, Indy, had some repairs that just weren’t worth the investment so we decided it was best to part ways. Whew… That was a tough goodbye! So many fun memories of taking Dino to the beach, changing in the car while stuck in LA traffic, zipping around tight curves along the coast of Highway 1, flying over San Francisco hills…
The hardest part about trading Indy in was that he was a generous gift from my parents when I graduated from college. I love my parents and they’ve worked so hard to provide for me in ways I could never repay.
Nick and I knew we’d need a better car at some point but didn’t foresee it being this soon, and the timing was absolutely TERRIBLE! How do you get a car when you don’t have a job?
Two things I know to be true: God provides every time and prayer works. For a long time I confused miracles and magic thinking miracles had to look like magic. Instead, I’m learning miracles might not necessarily look like anything special: in this specific case it was peoples’ generosity (Thanks Mom and Dad Steele!), faithful friends’ prayers, and wisdom to use what resources we had.
So there’s Lesson #1: Only by God’s grace.
Lesson #2 was a little more “interactive” and really threw me for a loop. I felt like we held up our end of the bargain: when Nick got his car a few years ago we said we’d be back because we had a great experience and here we were. But the people on the other side were different, failing us, and expecting us to pay for their failure.
How could I forgive these people for a) the mistake they made and b) the way they were treating us in the midst of it, having the audacity to offer to “split the difference” with us as if that was a good deal?
But then another two words hit me – BUT GOD…
…demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8
I know it’s a petty illustration in comparison with the weight of Christ’s sacrifice on the cross but WOW, was it humbling! Here I was losing sleep, unable to show mercy over a human error – over a “thing” that will eventually pass away…
I failed pretty horribly in grace and mercy last night and have a long long way to go, but now I’ve got Mercy Grace to remind me of His love everyday.
Forgive me for being so selfish, fearful, and easily angered. Give me the humility to forgive and repent. Help me to be more like You: gracious, merciful, slow to anger and great in lovingkindness (Psalm 145:8).
❤ amanda mae