June isn’t an easy month for me. In recent years I seem to be plagued by the “birthday blues” as my wishlist has remained the same for several years, untouched and gathering dust. And although I’m grateful for the healing that is gradually taking place over time, I admit there are some days I’m still triggered by memories of disappointment and loneliness from my June wedding day.
Last June was also the month I left my job at the Tennessee Baptist Children’s Homes. My supervisors and teammates all showed great grace and support for my decision and I felt confident that I was being obedient to God in taking the leap of faith. I was filled with hope and excitement for the future with a few seemingly promising prospects, confident that my next endeavor would be bigger, better, and more creative.
A year later I’m still waiting on that dream job and my birthday wishlist remains the same: calling, community, kids. But this morning I received a refreshing breath of air to help me keep going and hoping. I opened up the June issue of Lifeway’s Journey devotional and found myself (literally) in Day 1:
This is me! My first ever published writing which I submitted nearly a year ago! It’s a small step of progress that reminds me that God really is faithful and that He does care about the desires of our hearts.
It’s also a reminder of how real and tangible He truly is. In reading this devotional I was transported back to that beautiful sweet sticky summer day in Nigeria and am filled with joy. I had dreamed of going to Africa and (separately) going on a mission trip for years before I actually did in 2013. The way God orchestrated it was completely unexpected and absolutely perfect: Who knew I’d get to do both in one big awesome experience?! Only God.
I hope that you are encouraged to keep dreaming too, or if you’re in that sweet spot where things are going well and you’re actually “living the dream”, I pray that you will savor the moment and store it away in your heart for the times that you might need to pull it out and be reminded of God’s goodness.
I will give thanks to you, Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High.
❤ amanda mae